“The Christian ideal has not been tried and found wanting. It has been found difficult and left untried.” –G.K. Chesterton
Ever hit a wall in your faith that you weren’t quite sure how to overcome? I have. More than I care to admit.
To my shame, my most recent crisis of faith came after 10 years of walking with Christ. It came after several years of being involved in leadership of several Christian groups and organizations, sometimes at a high level. It came after completing two years of seminary training. I found myself half way to a Master’s degree wondering what difference my faith really made in my life. On the surface I seemed to struggle with the same things I had struggled with years earlier. If faith is a journey, I had completely stagnated.
This crisis forced some tough self-examination. What was I still struggling with? How did I think my faith should inform or transcend my struggle? And, most importantly, why wasn’t I able to get there?
Examination led to renewal of discipline but it has also led into an unexpected journey of re-orientation. Just when I think I have a grip on the questions I’m asking, the questions change or evolve.
I’m not there yet. I may never be. But this is my pursuit. Maybe you will be encouraged. Maybe you can commiserate. Either way, my hope is to progress towards the goal: to be found in Christ as much and in as many situations as possible.