These are just a few of the terms I’ve used to describe myself in the countless job interviews I’ve had over the last few months. I think they’re true and I hope that my references have backed up my perception, but I’ve recently come under the conviction that, while those things are good to be known by, I’ve missed the point.
Connecting with people has never been a problem for me. As an introvert, there are times that connecting with people is a chore, but when I set my mind to it it’s really pretty easy for me to make a connection, build trust, and develop a relationship. I also value the idea that I’m smart and clever. Honestly, I value it too much. As a result, I sometimes find the clever way to try and accomplish my mission of making disciples of college students and neglect the straight-forward approach. Worse, at times I settle with “making a connection” with someone in which Jesus is completely absent.
So this is my mea culpa. This is my resolution to first make a big deal about Jesus and then worry about a connection. This is my confession that I have allowed my desire to be liked, respected, admired, and valued supercede my primary objective of making much of Jesus to anyone He brings in my life. This is my apology to anyone I have dis-served through my ministry by allowing my self-centered, ego-based needs to get in the way of our experiencing, knowing, and pursuing Jesus more closely together.
This is my determination: to no longer leave undone the things that should be primary in my life, relationships, and ministry. For me, that means loving Jesus with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and to lead others to do the same.